good day!
I believe in God - eternal damnation and the like. I would only want to live this life and enjoy it. Nothing really is happening at the moment. I want to be a good person, a jolly girl, who would smile at little things but I am so far the most uptight 26yr- old woman I know. I am miserable in a way that I dont really have what I want but what do I want in the first place? That is the question even I cannot seem to answer. I have been a person who does things without complain but in my mind all the thoughts of hatred are there. I do feel I am the most pathetic and uncaring person I know. (that just mean to say I dont know too many people). I am not the type of person who would actually resort to suicide.
Whew anyways. .. suicide .. I know this person who physically scars her wrist to I dont know why. Everytime I saw that fresh scars I have this tingly feeling or probably a shiver that says if she can do this to herself she might be able to do it on other people. I might be right or I might be wrong thinking too much of the situation But really it creeps me out. The bad thing is that we live on the same apartment - wouldn't it be very convenient to slit one's throat the same way she slits her wrists??
Whew.. enough of that thought. It's getting creepy as I think more of it.
