Am back not because I want to but because am bored again am not doing anything but bury my face on the monitor...
As was expected of me, my life has been decided by somebody else and I let them. Why? Because I'm a bore, I don't have a life, I have no strong or good reason to live for.. The thought came to me so often now but I ignored it for I have alot of things I (based on some people's standard) wanted to accomplish still. At 26, I have nothing I call my own.
Now I am in this strange country but am trying my very best to embrace this culture so different from mine. I have found work but I also lost it in 2 mons. time everything happened too fast. I wanted it to happen but I was not prepared to have it immediately.As the saying goes.. be careful what you wish for, you might just get it... and I did! The company I worked for just lost it and cutting down cost is the best way to go and letting people go is one way of doing so. I enjoyed the job, I kearned something but I just knew I was never going to have that job for a long time. The job was perfect but the people around me was totally like hell.. acting as if they know everything there is to know. But for right now am glad I have got out of that dark room. I will be a learned person but my spirit will never be as good as I want it to be if I were to stay there more.
Hmmm.. I am a bore and I like it (i think). Starting all over is totally difficult but there is no other way to move on but start all over again... and that is what am doing.. praying and hoping that the next will be way better that the last. I pray to God for my well-being, my sanity...for I dont want to lose it. heheh.
As was expected of me, my life has been decided by somebody else and I let them. Why? Because I'm a bore, I don't have a life, I have no strong or good reason to live for.. The thought came to me so often now but I ignored it for I have alot of things I (based on some people's standard) wanted to accomplish still. At 26, I have nothing I call my own.
Now I am in this strange country but am trying my very best to embrace this culture so different from mine. I have found work but I also lost it in 2 mons. time everything happened too fast. I wanted it to happen but I was not prepared to have it immediately.As the saying goes.. be careful what you wish for, you might just get it... and I did! The company I worked for just lost it and cutting down cost is the best way to go and letting people go is one way of doing so. I enjoyed the job, I kearned something but I just knew I was never going to have that job for a long time. The job was perfect but the people around me was totally like hell.. acting as if they know everything there is to know. But for right now am glad I have got out of that dark room. I will be a learned person but my spirit will never be as good as I want it to be if I were to stay there more.
Hmmm.. I am a bore and I like it (i think). Starting all over is totally difficult but there is no other way to move on but start all over again... and that is what am doing.. praying and hoping that the next will be way better that the last. I pray to God for my well-being, my sanity...for I dont want to lose it. heheh.
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