Freakin' out?

I woke up this morning and the first thing that comes to mind is ... when will I get up with the man I love beside me and a wee little face looking up on me? Am I freakin' out? i'm going to turn 27 this December and I ask myself - when am I gonna get married? Is the clock ticking or is it just me freaking?

I have a boyfriend of 3yrs. but we haven't really seriously discussed marriage. I think women are the ones wanting to get married as soon as possible, for the reason that we might be too old to actually bore a baby..duh! guys wake up we dont have all the time in the world. All you men might want to bum around for now while your ladies are freaking out. I for one would want to see my own flesh and blood..a baby.. oh a baby a kid that would grow up to be either a goody-two shoes or a monster like her mom. hehehe. not really a monster but a little devilish perhaps.. hehe. I dont want to be able to look back into my life and miss this.. no way, I have to be a mother but when? I dont know.

But... other part of me would say .. would it be a good time to actually have a child in this state of the world all thats happening,the crisis and recession? Or am I just too selfish to satisfy my own fancy?

Questions.. hmmm I think I'm ready though. hehe.

I love you!